Zamkati
Ulendo Wokwatirana Wokwatirana Wokwatirana utayamba kusindikizidwa, ine ndi Alan tinalibe njira yoyembekezera kuzengedwa mlandu kwathu. Iyi ndi nkhani yakukhulupirika kwa Mulungu kwa ife kudzera mumoto wa zovutazo.
Moto umenewo unayambira kuchipinda chodikirira nthawi ya 9:30 usiku. pa Seputembara 4, 2009.
Alan ndi ine tinali kuyembekezera zotsatira za opaleshoni ya m'mimba ya mwana wathu Josh. Potsagana ndi mlangizi wachipatala, dokotala wochita opaleshoni wamisala Dr. Debora McClary adalowa nati, "Izi sizinaphule kanthu monga ndimayembekezera.
Joshua ndi wodwala khansa. ” Alan ndi ine tinagwerana wina ndi mnzake ndipo tinalira.
Kenako wazaka 31, Josh anali kukonzekera kutumiza ku Iraq ndi gulu lake la National Guard. Koma kutsatira kugundana kwakumbuyo m'galimoto yake, adamva kuwawa m'mimba mosalekeza.
Anakayikira kuti kukhudzika kwa chikwama cha mpweya kumayambitsa fistula, misozi m'matumba osalimba pakati pamatumbo ndi matumbo. Atadwala kwa zaka zambiri ndi zilonda zam'mimba, Josh adagwira ntchito mwakhama kuti athane ndi vuto lakugaya chakudya.
Poopa kumulepheretsa kutumiza, adapewa kupita kwa dokotala, koma mwachidziwikire, kwa ine ndi Alan, anali kudwala - kutentha thupi komanso kuwirikiza kawiri ndi ululu.
Tidalimbikira kuti akafufuzidwe, ndipo Ambuye adatitsogolera kwa Dr. McClary waluso komanso wachifundo. Anazindikira kudwala kwa Josh ndipo adaletsa msonkhano kuti adzamuwone.
Pambuyo pa mayeso, ndinapempha ngati tingathe kupemphera. Iye anati inde. Ndinapemphera kenako ndinakweza maso kuti ndimuone Dr. McClary atagwada pamaso pa Josh ndi dzanja lake pabondo.
Ambuye adadziwa kuti tifunikira dokotala wamphamvu wachikhristu kuti ayende nafe zomwe zikubwera.
Tinakambirana zotsatira zoyipa kwambiri. Josh adachita mantha ndi colostomy, kuchotsedwa kwa gawo lomwe lawonongeka kwambiri m'matumbo mwake ndikubwezeretsanso kudzera pabowo m'mimba mwake kuti alole matumbo ndi nthenda yake kuti ichiritse.
Sitinaganizepo kuti matenda ake am'mimba anali atapangitsa kale kufalikira kocheperako kwa khansa yochepa. Amapewa kupezeka pamayeso wamba azachipatala, komabe anali atapezapo matumbo ambiri am'mimba m'munsi mwa mimba yake.
Chikwama choopsa cha colostomy chidakhala chochepa kwambiri pazovuta za Josh.
Zambiri zakumenya nkhondo ndi khansa ya Josh zitha kudzaza zonse: momwe adatikwiyira chifukwa chodikirira kuyambira 10:30 pm mpaka 4 koloko kuti amuuze za matendawa, osadziwa kuti adamva mawu oti "khansa" adanong'oneza mchipinda chachipatala.
Momwe tidaphunzirira limodzi kusintha matumba ake a colostomy ndikutsuka stoma yake; momwe chemotherapy idamupangira kudzipha; momwe anafunira chithandizo cha naturopathic cha matenda ake; momwe adayesera kupitilira ndi mankhwala ochepetsa ululu momwe angathere.
Kupweteka kumamugunda bwanji mpaka atakokedwa ndikupukutira pansi; momwe adaswa zinthu mokwiya ndi kuwawa kwake; momwe tinalira; komabe momwe adakwanitsirabe kundiseka mpaka tsiku lake lomaliza padziko lapansi.
Ndipo zidatha pa 2:20 a.m. pa Julayi 22, 2010, pomwe Ambuye adachotsa mzimu wa Josh kumthupi lake lotopa, losweka ndikumubweretsa kunyumba.
Komabe, nkhaniyi ikukhudzana ndi banja, ndipo tikufuna kufotokozera zomwe Ambuye wachita kwa ine ndi Alan kupyola zovuta za nkhondoyi.
Kubwerera kumbuyo
Moyo wathu unali wosokonezeka kwambiri panthawi yomwe khansa ya Josh inayamba.
Zaka zitatu m'mbuyomu, ndikuyembekeza kulowa mgulu lautumiki waukwati mdera laling'ono, Alan ndi ine tidagula nyumba yatsopano m'ndondomeko yamakilomita 40 kumadzulo kwa komwe tidakhala zaka 25 zapitazo.
Tachititsidwa khungu ndi nyenyezi m'maso mwathu, tidayenda pamadzi oundana azachuma. Tinkachita lendi nyumba yathu yoyamba koma sitinkaivomereza. Olemba lendi atasamuka, timayenera kubweza ngongole zanyumba ziwiri kuphatikiza zolipirira eni nyumba.
Kenako bungwe lathu lopanda phindu, Walk & Talk, lidataya wopereka ndalama wamkulu, ndipo seminare komwe Alan adagwira ntchito kwakanthawi adachotsa udindo wake.
Kukula kwa dera lathu kudayamba ndi chuma ndipo chiyembekezo chathu chodzala tchalitchi ndikukula muutumiki chidatha.
Kuyenda kwakanthawi pamsewu wapamtunda wopita kuntchito yanga monga mkonzi mnzake wamagazini kunawononga thanzi langa. Atandipeza ndi Multiple Sclerosis mu 2004, ndinali nditatopa mwakuthupi, m'maganizo, komanso m'maganizo chifukwa chapanikizika pantchito.
Alan anayendetsa ulendo wautali kwambiri. Pofuna kuchepetsa ndalama, tinagulitsa galimoto yake. Anandiyendetsa kuntchito ndikunditenga. Nthawi zambiri ndinali wotopa kwambiri kuti ndikonze chakudya. Alan ankakonza chakudya ndi kuyeretsa kwambiri, ndipo ndinadzimva waliwongo pomulola kuti azichita.
MS idakhudza luso langa lakumvetsetsa komanso kukumbukira kwakanthawi, ndikupangitsa kuti ndizolakwika pantchito. Ndipo ntchito yanga inali kukonza zolakwika, osati kuzipanga!
Ndikulangizidwa ndi ogwira ntchito kuti ndipeze zopunduka, ndidapatsa magaziniyo ndi mnzanga wokondedwa ntchito zabwino mu Ogasiti 2008. Tidataya theka la ndalama zanga ndipo tidapeza 100% ya inshuwaransi yathu yazaumoyo.
Alan adayesa kuyambiranso nyumbayo koma sizinathandize. Posimidwa, tidazilemba ndi wogulitsa wodziwa bwino kugulitsa kwakanthawi, zomwe zimadzichepetsadi.
Tinasangalala pamene banki inavomereza wogula ndikuyamba kukonzekera kubwerera ku Phoenix, zomwe tinakonza kuti tichite pobwereketsa eni nyumba athu kumapeto. Munali koyambirira kwa Ogasiti 2009.
Mu Januware, miyezi isanu ndi itatu yokha m'mbuyomo, ndidawombera chithunzi cha Josh atatsamira pa Honda Prelude yake yachifumu, wokondwa komanso wotsimikiza. Anangobwera kumene kuchokera chaka chimodzi ngati kontrakitala waboma ku Iraq.
Anali ndi ndalama kubanki komanso zillion zomwe akanachita mtsogolo mwake. Gulu lake la National Guard lidalamulidwa kuti akagwire ntchito kunja. Anali ndi miyezi isanu ndi inayi kuti akonzekere kubwerera ku Iraq, akunena kuti ayenera "kukhala wathanzi."
Akuthamangira kunja kwa maso ake, coloni ya Josh sinamupatse mtendere pang'ono, ndipo adayesa njira zina zochiritsira.
Anali akuyendetsa mochedwa popita ku naturopathy pomwe dalaivala yemwe anali patsogolo pake adagunda mabuleki ake ndi kuwala kwachikaso pomwe Josh anali kuwombera kuti ayendetse. Munali pa Ogasiti 17, 2009.
Kuyesa mfundo
Yesaya 43: 2-3a akuti:
Ukadutsa pamadzi, ndidzakhala ndi iwe;
Ndipo ukawoloka mitsinje, sidzakusefukira.
Ukadutsa pamoto sudzapsa,
Ndipo lawi silidzakuwotcha.
Pakuti Ine ndine Yehova Mulungu wako,
Woyera wa Israyeli, Mpulumutsi wako.
Kupyola miyezi yakulimbana ndi matenda (khansa ya Josh) komanso kuyambira atamwalira, mfundo zazikuluzikulu zomwe Alan ndi ine tidakambirana mu The Marital Mystery Tour adayesedwa, kuyesedwa, ndikutsimikiziridwa muukwati wathu.
- Mgwirizano
Poyamba, mantha ndi mantha a matenda a Josh adatikumbatira ine ndi Alan.
Tidatengeka mtima, ndikuponyedwa m'sitima yapamadzi yochokera kuzombo zakuya zachuma ndikupita kumalo oyera azovuta za Josh. Tinagwirana wina ndi mnzake kuti tithandizane, ndipo tinagwirana mitu pamwamba pamadzi.
Koma sizinatengere nthawi kuti maubwenzi ovuta a Josh, zosowa zamankhwala, komanso zovuta zam'malingaliro zidakangana pakati pathu. Tinkalimbana ndi matenda a mwana wathu wamwamuna yemwe anali ndi ma quirks ambiri.
Adabwera kuchipatala ali wokonzeka kuyang'anizana ndi kuchira pambuyo povulala m'mimba ndi "kuwerenga pang'ono" kuti agwiritse ntchito - nkhani yakale ya Walter J. Boyne Clash of Wings: World War II in the Air.
Ndidamuwerengera mokweza ... nthawi ya 2 koloko m'mawa pomwe amawerenga masekondi mpaka atafika pa morphine wotsatira. Wosakhwima kwambiri kuposa momwe ndimayembekezera, adakonza katchulidwe kanga ka mayina aku Germany, French ndi Czechoslovakian, ndikuwonjezera ndemanga zake molondola wolemba.
Anadandaula kuti malo omwe anamwino anali panja pa chitseko chawo anali phokoso kwambiri. Chipinda chake chinali chotentha kwambiri, chozizira kwambiri, chowala kwambiri.
Kwa masiku angapo otsatira, ndinayesetsa kuti Josh akhale womasuka pomwe Alan amayesetsa kunditeteza kuti ndisadzichulukitse ndikuwononga thanzi langa.
Koma ndimafuna kumva mawu aliwonse omwe adotolo anena, kulandira mlendo aliyense, kukumana ndi namwino aliyense. Uyu anali mwana wathu woyamba kubadwa.
Tili kuchipatala pomwe ndimalandila foni kuchokera kwa mchimwene wanga. Amayi anga azaka 84 anali atamwalira. Patatha milungu iwiri, banja lathu (kuphatikiza Josh) tidakwera ndege kupita ku Pennsylvania ku Manda a Amayi (Makina othamangitsa mpweya okhaokha anali a Hosh.)
Tinabwerera kuchokera kuulendowu kukakhala sabata yotsatira tikunyamula katundu wathu ndi Josh kuti tibwerere ku Phoenix. Okhala athu anali akuyembekezera mwana m'masabata ochepa, chifukwa chake tinachita lendi nyumba kwa wina.
Josh pomwe kulimbana ndi matenda anali ndi luso loyendetsa pakati pa Alan ndi ine. Ndikuganiza kuti aliyense wa iwo amafuna kuti ndikhale mnzake wapamtima. Iwo anali amuna achikulire awiri okhala pansi pa denga limodzi.
Ngakhale akadakhala wathanzi, Josh adakhala maola akadzidzi akudziwika, kugona usiku, ndikuchezera ndi anzawo mpaka usiku. Matenda ake adasokoneza magonedwe ake, ndipo amatha kulemba pa Facebook ndikulemba maimelo nthawi yayitali.
Alan ndi mbalame yoyambirira - molawirira kukagona ndi kumadzuka msanga. Ali bwino kwambiri komanso wowala kwambiri mbandakucha ndipo amataya nthunzi tsiku likamatha.
Makhalidwe anga achilengedwe ali ngati a Josh. Zitsanzo izi zokha zinali zokwanira kuyambitsa mkangano. Nthawi zambiri ine ndi Josh tinali ogalamuka tikulankhula kapena kumwa tiyi kapena kuwonera makanema apa TV ngati "Iron Chef" patadutsa kale Alan atagona.
Tsoka ilo, TV yathu yokhayo inali mchipinda chochezera, chosiyanitsidwa ndi chipinda chogona chachikulu ndi khoma lowonda kwambiri.
Josh adanenetsa kuti amenya khansa, koma sindingakane kuti zovuta zake zinali bwanji kwa iye. Ndinayesetsa kugwiritsa ntchito bwino mphindi iliyonse yomwe ndinali naye. Alan, komabe, sanali patsamba lomwelo.
Ankafuna kuti Josh azisamalira nyumba, zomwe Josh sankafuna kuchita kapena sanathe kuchita kuyambira ali wakhanda.
Mulu waukulu wa katundu wa Josh, womwe tidasamutsa m'nyumba yake m'mabokosi, mabokosi, mitengo ikuluikulu, ndi matumba azinyalala, udadzaza garaja yathu; ndipo kuyimitsa magalimoto athu mumsewu kunali kopikisana ndi gulu la eni nyumba.
Mavuto adagundana mlengalenga. Josh ndi Alan anakangana. Ndidayesera kuti ndiwafotokozere. Nthawi zina, Josh ankatchula Alan kuti “mwamuna wako” ndipo anandiuza kuti adzayanjananso kumwamba koma osati padziko lapansi pano.
Ndinadziwa kuti amakondana; samangowoneka kuti akufotokoza popanda kukhumudwitsana pochita izi.
Komabe masiku atatu Josh asanamwalire, pamene madotolo adachotsa chubu lopumira pakhosi pake, adayang'ana kwa ine ndi Alan nati, "Ndimakukondani, Amayi. Ndimakukondani, Ababa. Aleluya! ”
Ndiye kodi Comradeship ikupezeka bwanji muvutoli? Ndikukhulupirira kuti maziko aubwenzi wathu ndi Alan tidakhazikitsa msanga muubwenzi wathu udalimbikitsa banja lathu pomwe zina zonse zomwe zidatizungulira zikusokonekera ndikutithandiza kuthana ndi matenda amwana wathu ..
Tsopano, patadutsa chaka chimodzi Josh atamwalira, tikumanganso maziko aubwenzi amenewo. Tonse tagwedezeka, koma sitinayambe tifunsa za kukhulupirika kwa wina ndi mnzake.
Tidayankhula ndikumvetsera ndikugwedeza mutu ndikutonthoza. Takhala tikukandizana misana, kusisyana mapewa ndi mapazi a wina ndi mnzake.
Tsiku lina masana miyezi ingapo yapitayo, ndili m'malo ovuta kwambiri, okhumudwa mwamalingaliro, Alan adandiuza, "Tiyeni tipite pagalimoto." Anandiumiriza kuti ndilowe mgalimotoyo ndikupita nafe ku Camp Verde, pafupifupi ola limodzi kumpoto kwa Phoenix.
Iye adakhala ndi Dairy Queen, ndipo ine ndidapeza Starbucks, ndipo tonsefe tidatuluka "pamitu yathu" kwakanthawi. Panali china chake chodabwitsa chothandizira pakusintha malo athu omwe adasinthanso malo anga amkati.
Nthawi zonse takhala tikusangalala kuyenda ndikuyankhula ndikuyenda-osayenda, osayenda mwamphamvu - ndipo timayesetsa kumayenda pafupipafupi.
Nyimbo zomwe timakonda kuchita zimathandizira kuti muzitha kukambirana (kapena ayi) ndikuwona kukongola kosavuta kwa malo omwe tili. Ngakhale tidakumana nazo, titha kuwona mozungulira ife zomwe tikuyenera kuyamikirabe.
Posachedwa tayamba kukoka masewera kuchipinda chathu. Poyamba, palibe aliyense wa ife amene amadzimva kuti ndi wopikisana kapena wolimba, ndipo kusinkhasinkha kunali kovuta. Koma nditamenya Alan mgawo lathu loyamba la Othello, adabweranso kudzandilanda kwachiwiri.
Ah, zinali zambiri ngati izo! Tsopano timalola chibadwa chakupha kuti chitigwere tonsefe pamene tikufuna kupanga gin rummy ndi "Palibe Dice."
- Kudzipereka
Zovuta zimabweretsa zabwino komanso zoyipa kwambiri pamakhalidwe a munthu.
Uyu wachotsa Alan ndipo ine sindinayerekeze zachinyengo zilizonse zomwe mwina timayesetsa kukhalabe nazo.
Tawonana wina ndi mnzake zosasimbika, zowonekera, komanso zofooka zambiri zaanthu. Talephera aliyense m'njira zingapo. Pomwe ndimayesetsa kusunga mutu wa Josh pamwamba pamadzi, kukhulupirika kwanga komwe kudagawika kunasiya Alan akumangokhalira kuda nkhawa zaubwenzi wathu.
Ndidasankha zofunika zanga, ndikukhulupirira kuti Josh amafunikira mautumiki azimayi ndipo Alan angatero
ndikuyenera "kuyamwa" kwakanthawi.
Koma ndimadziwa kuti zikhala za nyengo yokha. Kuyambira ndi mawu owopsa a Dr. McClary, palibe dokotala yemwe adatipatsa chiyembekezo chabodza chokhudza mwayi wa Josh wopulumuka khansa yake.
Ngakhale naturopath wake ku Tucson adapereka chithandizo chamankhwala chokhudzana ndi chomera chowawa komanso chakupha. Josh anakana kuzilandira. Kwa ine, kuchezera uku kunasindikiza chidziwitso chakuti anali ndi kanthawi kochepa kuti akhale ndi moyo.
Chifukwa chake ndinaika zikhumbo za Alan kumbuyo ndikuwongolera zosowa za Josh. Tsopano, ndikhulupilira kuti mukumvera mfundo iyi: sindinanyalanyaze kudzipereka kwanga kwa Alan, komanso sindinamuletse iye ndi ubale wathu.
Mosiyana ndi izi, ndimadziwa kuti malonjezo athu okwatirana amakhala olimba komanso olimba kwa wina ndi mnzake. Kope lalikulu lokhala ndi mafelemu olembedwa pamanja limaonekera kwambiri m'nyumba mwathu. Timawaona tsiku lililonse, ndipo timawaganizira kwambiri.
Pamene ndinalumbira kukhalabe pambali pa Alan ndikudzipereka kwa iye ngati "amene mtima wake ungamudalire," ndimatanthauza mawu onse pamaso pa Mulungu ndi anthu.
Komabe, ine ndi Alan sitinkagwirizana pankhani zina zokhudza chisamaliro cha Josh. Amayamikira thanzi langa komanso thanzi langa kuposa a Josh, pomwe ndimangowona kuti thanzi la Josh likutha pamaso pathu.
Kutopa ndi chizindikiro chachikulu cha MS yanga, ndipo Alan adandiwona kuthana ndi matenda, kukankhira malire a kupirira kwanga, kugona mochedwa, akutumiza tawuni yonse kugula zakudya zamtengo wapatali, zowonjezera, mkaka wa mbuzi ndi zina zotero, kumuthandiza Josh ndikuyembekeza kuti njira zochiritsira izi zikumenyetsa khansa yake, pomwe matenda ake akuipiraipira.
Josh adakalipira pomwe Alan adamuuza kuti akambirane ndi a oncologist ku Tucson kapena alankhule ndi wotsogolera odwala kuchipatala.
"Uzani amuna anu zakutizakuti," amatero, ndikuchepetsa ubale wathu. "Sindikufuna kuzindikira kuti bambowo ndi bambo anga."
Sanathe kuwona kuti Alan adamva kuwawa bwanji chifukwa cholephera kuchita kena kake kuchiritsa mwana wake wamwamuna woyamba kubadwa. Koma ndimatha kuziwona, mwina kuposa zomwe Alan mwiniwake adaziwona.
Kudzipereka kwa Alan pondisamalira ndi kunditeteza sikunasinthe. Koma anali kumenya nkhondoyi pambali zambiri kuposa ine, ndipo panthawiyi, adamenyanso kwambiri.
Ndazindikira tsopano kuti thanzi lake, mwakuthupi, mwamaganizidwe, komanso mwamalingaliro, adadzipereka panthawiyi.
- Kulankhulana
Josh asanamwalire, ndinkagwira ntchito ndi dokotala wanga kuti ndiziyesetse kumwa mankhwala olimbana ndi nkhawa. Ndinkafuna kuti ndimvetse momwe ndikumvera, kuti ndikhale ndikulira ndikamakhala wachisoni, osafufuza momwe ndikumvera ndikamazindikira chisoni changa.
Sindingakondwerere kuchitapo kanthu kwa aliyense, koma chinali chisankho choyenera kwa ine. Ndidakhala nthawi yayitali ndikumapeputsa nkhawa zanga, ndikudziyimbira kuti ndikhale wachisoni, wokwiya, komanso wamantha.
Tsopano ndinkafuna kuti ndiloleni ndimve ndikukonzekera momwe ndikumvera. Sindinayambe ndalira kwambiri pamoyo wanga.
Mpingo wathu umakhala ndi pulogalamu yotchedwa GriefShare yomwe imapereka chithandizo kwa anthu omwe aferedwa.
Atangotaya Josh, ine ndi Alan tinayamba kupita kumisonkhano mlungu uliwonse, kutsamira wina ndi mnzake, kulira, ndikulimbikitsidwa ndi gululi komanso atsogoleri ake.
Pa miyezi inayi yotsatira, pamene ndimakonza chisoni changa, ndimamva kuti ndikulimba mtima.
Komabe, Alan anali akulowera mumdima wakuda, ndipo palibe aliyense wa ife amene anauwona ukubwera.
Kuthana ndi maudindo onse osuntha kawiri mchaka chimodzi kuphatikiza kukonzanso nyumba yathu ndikuchotsa malo osokonekera a Josh pomwe tikupitiliza upangiri wopanda phindu, Alan anali atawonjezeredwa kwakanthawi.
Khrisimasi itangotha, thupi lake linati, "Zokwanira," ndipo adayamba kukhumudwa. Mwakuthupi, mwamalingaliro, mwamalingaliro, komanso wofooka mwauzimu, amakhala pampando mchipinda cha banja, kumangoyang'ana mopanda kanthu, osamacheza kapena kutenga buku kapena kuwonera TV.
Ndikamufunsa zomwe akufuna kuchita, amangokweza mapewa ake ndikuwoneka wopepesa.
Kupyola muukwati wathu wonse, ndakhala ndi anthu omwe ndimatha kuwaitana panthawi yamavuto am'banja, abwenzi omwe titha kuwakhulupirira kuti amve mbali zonse ziwiri za nkhani zathu, kumvetsera mwachifundo, kupereka upangiri wanzeru, kupemphera, komanso kusunga chinsinsi.
Tidaliranso alangizi achikhristu a Alfred Ells kuti atithandizire kuyenda m'njira zabwino pamavuto osiyanasiyana.
Kupitilira kamodzi pazaka ziwiri zapitazi, ine ndi Alan tidakhala muofesi ya alangizi a Al, osazindikira zovuta zina. Tsiku limodzi Josh asanamwalire, Al adakhala m'chipinda chathu chochezera, ndikufunsa mafunso ovuta, ndikundipatsa bwalo lofotokozera mkwiyo wanga kwa Alan momwe amamufotokozera (kapena sanamufotokozere) Josh.
Sikuti ndinali "kulondola" ndipo Alan anali "kulakwitsa," koma takhala tikulabadira mwadzidzidzi mosiyana - ine chowunikira, kuyesa kudziwa zomwe zikulakwika komanso momwe ndingathetsere zovuta; Alan fixer, akudumphira kuchitapo kanthu.
Chifukwa chakuti timaphunzitsa maanja momwe angayankhulirane wina ndi mnzake, anthu ena amayembekezera kuti ine ndi Alan titha kuyankhulana mwamphamvu. Amaganiza kuti sitiyenera kukangana kapena kutsutsana kapena kusamvana.
Ha! Zosiyana ndizoona. Alan ndi ine tinaphunzira maluso olankhulirana omwe timaphunzitsa chifukwa mwachibadwa timatha kulankhulana bwino. Ndife mwachibadwa timakonda kukangana, kunyada komanso kudziteteza tokha, monga anthu ambiri omwe timawadziwa.
Nthawi zambiri tinkayesetsa kukambirana nkhani zathu m'miyezi yakudwala kwa Josh, mikangano yambiri idayamba pakati pathu. Koma nthawi zambiri, tonse timayesetsa kukopa mnzake kuti asinthe malingaliro ake.
Maluso athu olumikizirana adagwira ntchito bwino; tinangosemphana wina ndi mnzake - pankhani yayikulu yokhudza moyo ndi imfa. Sindingathe kusintha malingaliro a Alan, ndipo nayenso sangasinthe malingaliro anga.
Mwamwayi kwa ife, kapena moyenerera, mwa chisomo cha Mulungu, Alan ndi ine tinasungirana maakaunti achidule. Zaka zapitazo, tidaphunzira zopanda pake kuyambiranso mizinda yakufa yamikangano yakale.
Inde, tinali ndi masiku athu olimbana ndi mfuti m'misewu yafumbi ya Tombstone, kuwombera m'mbuyomu kumapweteketsa m'modzi kapena wina wa ife sitinkafuna kuti tife.
Koma pakapita nthawi ndikuchita, taphunzira momwe tingayang'anire vutoli m'malo mwa munthu yemwe ali ndi malingaliro otsutsana pankhaniyo. Palibe aliyense wa ife amene angafune kuti tizilowerera mu mikangano yomwe imangokulira m'maganizo.
Koma kuyenda ndi khansa ndi Josh kunatipangitsa kuti tikalowe gawo lina. Ngakhale malowo amawoneka osazolowereka, malo ambiri omwe tidaphimba amawoneka ofanana ndi malo omwe tidakhalapo kale.
Kodi ndimayamwitsa mwana amene akulira kapena ndimupatsa mwamuna wanga TLC kumapeto kwa tsiku lake logwira ntchito kuti akhale Do I juice kale ndi wheatgrass ya mwana wamwamuna yemwe amatha kumwa kapenanso awiri osakaniza ndikukweza mphuno zake zotsalazo, kapena kodi ndimapereka TLC kwa amuna anga kumapeto kwa tsiku lawo logwira ntchito?
Tsiku lina madzulo, Alan anatuluka panja ndipo anakagona pa motelo usiku kuti ndisakhumudwe ndi miyala yomwe ndinkagwedeza. Palibe aliyense wa ife amene amafuna kuyimilira pamaimidwe athu pankhani zotigawanitsa. Ndipo zowonadi, tonsefe tinali "olondola" momwe aliyense wa ife akanakhoza kulondola kapena kulakwitsa.
Tinamvana; sitinkagwirizana.
Koma Josh atachoka, sindinawone tanthauzo lililonse poyesetsa kuteteza zikhalidwe zake kapena kufotokoza malingaliro ake kwa Alan. Tidayenera kuthandizana m'masautso athu.
Kuchokera chaka chomwe Josh anamwalira, ine ndi Alan tayambiranso kuyankha mafunso amene tinakambirana nawo pa nthawiyo. Tawasambitsa ndikukhululuka ndikuwaphimba ndi chisomo.
Takhala tikumverana, tigwirizane mitima, tigwirane manja. Tili ndi zambiri
ya nthawi tsopano tili chete pakuchepa kwathu kuti timve wina ndi mnzake.
Sindikuganiza kuti aliyense wa ife wasintha maudindo kapena akanachita mosiyana ngati titayendanso. Koma tanena zakukhosi kwathu, ndipo tamvera, ndipo tamva kuti akumvetsetsa.
- Kukwanira
Ine ndi Alan sitinakondanepo panthawi yomwe Josh anali kudwala. Ndine mayi yemwe atha msambo. Tonsefe timamwa mankhwala omwe adokotala atipatsa kuti atithandize kuthana ndi nkhawa.
Ndinali osamala kuti tisungebe zogonana ndikukwaniritsa zosowa za Alan, koma ndimasokonezeka, ndimatanganidwa. Mankhwala ake adakhudza mayankho ake. Ankaganiza kuti ndimamulimbikitsa mosiyana ndi masiku onse, ndikusintha momwe ndimakhalira naye.
Adalakalaka kumasulidwa komwe nthawi zambiri kugonana kumamupatsa, koma ngakhale zomwe ndimaganiza kuti ndizabwino sizinamupatse chisangalalo chomwe timayembekezera patatha zaka 35.
Zinali ngati tikuyambiranso, kuyesera kuphunzira kukhala okonda.
Ndinkaona kuti sindinkafuna kugonana. Sikuti ndimatsutsa mwamphamvu kapena ndinakana, koma ndinalibe chikhumbo chodzisangalatsa ndekha.
Komabe, Alan (Mulungu amudalitse) adaumirira kuti "andisangalatse" kamodzi pamlungu. Ndinavula mosaganiza ndikugona pakama osalumikizidwa ngati khanda likuyembekezera kusintha matewera.
Komabe anali wokonda kutsimikiza mtima ndipo adanditengera kumalo achitetezo, chisangalalo, ndi kumasulidwa mpaka nditasungunuka m'manja mwake ndikumuthokoza mobwerezabwereza pondisamalira.
Mu Epulo ndidakondwerera tsiku langa lobadwa la 60th. Physiologically Alan ndi ine sitifanana ndi akatswiri ochita masewera olimbitsa thupi omwe anali atavala zovala pamaso pawo paukwati wathu.
Koma kugonana, ngakhale sikunachitike pafupipafupi monga zidalili zaka 36 zapitazo, kumakhalabe gawo lofunikira lathu
chiwonetsero cha chikondi cha wina ndi mnzake. Kodi ndiyenera kunena kuti ndizosiyana ndi iye kuposa momwe ziriri kwa ine?
Sindikudziwa ngati ndingamvetsetse kuchuluka kwa kukakamizidwa mwa iye komwe kumafuna malo oti athe kumasula munjira zina, koma zomwe zimawonetsedwa kwathunthu ndikukhutiritsa polumikizana ndi ine. Ndipo mchitidwe waukwatiwo "umatitsitsimutsanso" zomatira zomwe zimagwirizanitsa mgwirizano wathu.
Kwa zaka zambiri, njira yathu yasintha. Ndikhoza kumasuka. Sindikudandaula za phokoso lochokera panja, ndipo ndilibe ana kunyumba, sindiyenera kutseka chitseko chathu chogona. Ndaphunzira kulandira kuchokera kwa Alan, ndipo waphunzira mayankho a mayankho anga.
Onaninso: Kufunika kogonana mbanja.
Timapanga okonda awiri, iye ndi ine bola tikhale ndi nthawi.
- Kudzipereka
Palibenso njira ina yonena izi: Kumwalira kwa mwana kumagwedeza chikhulupiriro chanu. Wagwedeza wanga. Zagwedeza za Alan. Koma kugwedeza sikofanana ndi kuphwanya.
Chikhulupiriro chathu chamangidwa, koma sichimasweka. Mulungu akadali pampando wachifumu wa chilengedwe chonse; palibe aliyense wa ife amene anakayikira Choonadi cha chilengedwe chonsechi.
Tikadapitilira bwanji ngati Mulungu Wamphamvuyonse akadalibe malo omwe ife ndipo dziko lathuli lilipo?
Ngati sitinakhale ndi chitsimikizo kuti Josh, wosavulazidwa ndi thupi lake losweka, adatulutsa mzimu wake ndikuwuka asintha, wathunthu, akumizidwa mu Moyo Wamuyaya kudikirira onse amene amakhulupirira Yesu kuti apulumuke?
Ndikulingalira kuti chipolopolo cha thupi lake lapadziko lapansi chimatsika, chopanda ntchito, mzimu wake nthawi yomweyo umadumphira mwamphamvu mu gulu la angelo ndi oyera mtima onse omwe adamutsogolera. Ndipo m'kuphethira kwa diso, Alan ndi ine tidzakhalanso komweko.
Ndicho chiyembekezo chathu cha chiukitsiro, chokwaniritsidwa pamtanda mwa Mesiya, Mwanawankhosa wangwiro wa Mulungu, amene mwazi wake umasesa kwamuyaya pamwamba pa "nyumba" ya wokhulupirira aliyense wapadziko lapansi.
Chikhulupiriro chathu chikupezabe bwino chifukwa cha mphamvu yokoka yomwe idagwedeza dziko lathu. Sindinathe kulembetsa nthawi yanga ya Quiet Times. Phunziro la Baibulo limandivuta, ngakhale mawuwa amakhalabe gwero la chilimbikitso chachikulu, Chowonadi chake chimakhazikika mu moyo wanga.
Alan poyamba adapitiliza kuchita zonse zokhudzana ndiutumiki, kutsogolera gulu laling'ono ndikuphunzitsa, pomwe ine, ndimalephera kupitiriza kutchalitchi popanda kulira, ndimangoganiza kuti sindingathenso kutsogolera chilichonse.
Kenako, mosazindikira, maudindo athu adasinthidwa. Alan anagunda khoma lomangalo ndipo anakhumudwa kwambiri. Anapeza unyinji kapena magulu amtundu uliwonse osapiririka. Momwe ndimakhazikika pamaondo, ndikufunitsitsa kucheza ndi anthu ena, adawasiya.
Tsopano tikubwezeretsanso kukhazikika kwathu mwauzimu. Sitinakhale “omasuka kunyumba”, koma tili paulendo wopita kumeneko.
Ndikulimbana ndi matenda apa pali chinthu chodabwitsa, chodabwitsa, chosangalatsa chomwe ndapeza chokhudza mwamuna wanga poyenda munkhalango zachisoni. Sanasiye kundipatsa chobvala chauzimu. Ndimamva mapemphero ake oteteza kwa ine tsiku lililonse.
Nthawi yathu yopempherera limodzi imawoneka ngati yosadabwitsa, nthawi zambiri imakhala yaifupi. Nthawi zina amandiuza momwe amadzimvera chisoni komanso osalimbikitsidwa akamayenda muuzimu. Koma chowonadi ndichakuti sanasiye kuyenda.
Amakumana ndi Ambuye tsiku ndi tsiku, ndipo ndine wotetezeka, wotetezedwa ndi denga lauzimu lomwe amakhala pamutu panga.
Ngakhale titaona kuti sitikugwirizana wina ndi mnzake, mizimu yathu imakhalabe yolumikizidwa ndi pangano lomwe linapangidwa zaka 36 zapitazo.
Ndikugulitsa uku, tidaphatikiza zonse zomwe tinali nazo ndipo tidakhala gawo limodzi lomwe limaphatikizapo zochulukirapo kuposa katundu wathu. Ngakhale zinali choncho, zaka zidadutsa, ndipo ndidapitilizabe kusiyanitsa pakati pazopereka zathu pagulu lathu, kuti, "kupambana kwanga", "kukwanitsa" kwake, "luso langa", luso lake, "kuthekera kwake," wanga "ndi" ubale wake " aliyense wa ana athu.
Ntchito yolimbana ndi matenda, kutaya, ndikumva chisoni ndi Josh idasokoneza mulu wa "zanga" ndi "zake". Kuyaka kunadyetsa moyo wathu wakale monga timawadziwira. Zomwe zinatsala zinali ngati phulusa - lopanda utoto, lakufa, losafunikira kupyola.
Chisoni ndi chotani? Nchiyani chimasiyanitsa kunyada kwa Alan ndi kwanga? Zikusiyana bwanji
tipange momwe tidawonetsera chikondi kwa Josh asanamwalire?
Posachedwapa ndinaonera wailesi yakanema yapadera yonena za phiri la St. Potetezedwa ngati chipilala cha dziko, malo okwana maekala 110,000 asiyidwa osasokonezedwa kuti achire mwachilengedwe.
Chodabwitsa, kutuluka phulusa, moyo umabwerera kumtunda. Makoswe ang'onoang'ono omwe adalimbana ndi kuphulika kwapansi asokoneza dziko lapansi ndi ngalande zawo, ndikupanga nthaka pomwe mbewu zimatha kumera ndikumera.
Maluwa akutchire, mbalame, tizilombo, ndi nyama zikuluzikulu zabwerera. Nyanja ya Spirit, yosiyidwa yopanda madzi chifukwa cha kuphulika kumeneku, ikubwerera kumalo ake omwe anali amiyala, ngakhale ndi nkhalango yatsopano yomwe ili pansi pake.
Chifukwa chake ine ndi Alan tikupeza "zachilendo" zathu zatsopano.
Monga mu 2 Akorinto 5:17, zinthu zakale zapita, ndipo pafupifupi chilichonse m'miyoyo yathu chikusandulika kukhala chomwe Ambuye adatikonzera kuyambira pachiyambi pomwe. Tikukhala monga Iye.