Zamkati
Nthawi ina nditakwanitsa zaka makumi awiri, zidawonekeratu kwa ine kuti amuna omwe ndimawakonda kwambiri ndiwo omwe anali othandizana nane kwambiri. Ubale wanga wokonda kwambiri, omwe ndimamva kuti "amayenera kukhala," amuna omwe anali "anzanga anzanga" ... awa ndi omwe ndidasewera nawo kwambiri, ndewu zoyipa kwambiri, zipolowe zambiri, zopweteka kwambiri . Tidayambitsana wina ndi mnzake ngati wopenga. Ubalewu sunafanane ndi ubale wabwino womwe ndimafuna.
Ndikukhulupirira kuti ena a inu munganene.
(Mukudziwa? Ndikudziwa kukonza izi. Pitilizani kuwerenga.)
Izi zimandipangitsa kukhala wopanda chiyembekezo. Zitha kukhala zowona bwanji kuti ndinayenera kukhala pachibwenzi ndimakonda kwambiri komanso kumenya nkhondo zambiri kapena kukhala pachibwenzi chosasangalatsa koma chokhazikika? Izi zimawoneka ngati chilango chankhanza komanso chachilendo chifukwa chokula m'banja loipa.
Ndinachita zinthu zosiyanasiyana m'malingaliro mwanga kuthana ndi izi. Ndinaganiza nthawi ina kuti yankho lokhalo ndilokhala ndiubwenzi wotseguka kuti ndikhale ndi banja lolimba lokhala ndi chilakolako kumbali. Koma ndimadziwa mumtima mwanga kuti sizingandigwire.
Chifukwa chomwe ndidasankhira chithandizo
Kwa zaka zambiri, ndikulimbana ndi vutoli, ndimagwiranso ntchito yanga. Ndinali ndikudziwa bwino kuti chifukwa chomwe ndimakopeka ndi anzawo oterewa chinali ubwana wanga wosakhazikika. Chifukwa chake ndinali kuchipatala sabata iliyonse, inde, komanso kuposa pamenepo. Ndinapitiliza kubwerera m'malo mopuma tchuthi kuti ndikawathandize. Zomwe ndinkabwerera m'mbuyo zimaphatikizapo kutchinga moyo wanga ndikulowerera mkati mwantchito zanga zanga. Zinali zodula ndipo zinali zovuta. Kodi ndimafuna kutha sabata ndikulira ndikuchezeranso zowawa zaubwana pomwe ndikadakhala pagombe ku Mexico? Ayi. Kodi ndimafuna kuthana ndi ziwanda zanga zonse komanso mantha? Osati makamaka. Kodi ndimayembekezera kuti anthu ena awone ziwalo zanga zomwe ndimachita manyazi nazo? Palibe kamodzi. Koma ndimafuna ubale wabwino ndipo mwanjira ina ndimadziwa kuti iyi ndi njira yake.
Ndinali kulondola. Zinathandiza
Pang'ono ndi pang'ono, ndinataya njira zanga zakale, zikhulupiriro zakale, zokopa zakale. Pang'ono ndi pang'ono, ndinaphunzira zomwe zimandilepheretsa. Ndachira. Ndakhululuka. Ndinakula. Ndinaphunzira kudzikonda ndekha ndipo ndinadzipereka ndekha.
Tsopano dziwani izi, sindinadziwe kuti ndinali nditakula. Kapena kuchiritsa koti muchite. Ndinamva bwino. Sindinakhumudwe kapena kuda nkhawa. Sindinatayike kapena kusokonezeka. Sindikulimbana mwanjira iliyonse kupatula kuti ubale wanga unkayamwa. Kutenga amuna okhaokha sikunali kukalamba ... monganso ine. Koma ndimadziwa kuti chomwe chimayambitsa ubale wanga ndi ine. Chifukwa chake ndidaganiza kuti china mwa ine chiyenera kusintha.
Zambiri zasintha. Ndinasintha njira zomwe sindinkaganiza. Ndipo ndinadzipeza ndekha, potsiriza, ndi mwamuna yemwe ndimamusokoneza yemwe ali wathanzi komanso wosasunthika momwe angathere. Ndizosadabwitsa kuti ndi m'modzi mwa anthu osowa kwambiri omwe ubwana wawo udali wabwino. (Sindinakhulupirire kwenikweni poyamba, koma zimakhala zowona). Sitimenyana ndipo nthawi zambiri sitimangokhalira kukangana. Tikatero, timakambirana za izi ndipo ndizabwino komanso zachikondi, ndipo tonse timakondana pambuyo pake.
Masiku ano, maanja amabwera kwa ine kudzalandira chithandizo ndikundiuza kuti amamenya nkhondo nthawi zonse koma amakondana kwambiri ndipo amafuna kukhala limodzi. Nthawi zonse ndimawauza zoona: Nditha kukuthandizani, koma ntchito ikhala yambiri.
Ndimawafotokozera kuti chifukwa chomwe amamenyera ndikuti wokondedwa wawo amadzipangira okha. Ndipo kudzichiritsa nokha ndiyo njira yokhayo yothetsera misala.
Ndikuganiza makamaka samandikhulupirira. Amaganiza kuti angopeza bwenzi lomwe siliwachititsa. Amakhulupirira kuti "si ine ayi, ndi iyeyo." Ndipo ali ndi mantha. Kumene. Ndinali wamantha, inenso. Ndikumvetsetsa.
Koma maanja ena avomera kuyamba ulendowu. Ichi ndichifukwa chake ndimachiza maanja. Ichi ndi changa alireza. Ndimakhala nawo paulendo wodabwitsa komanso wokongola. Ndimakhala nawo limodzi akamakula mchikondi wina ndi mzake m'njira yatsopano, monga anthu omwe ali okwanira komanso okhoza kukonda achikulire.
Chifukwa chake pitirizani, pitirizani kumenya nkhondo ngati mukuyenera. Kapena pitirizani kufunafuna wina yemwe simudzalimbana naye. Kapena perekani ndikukhazikika. Kapena dzitsimikizireni nokha kuti simunapangidwe kuti mudzakwatirane. Ndikudziwa bwino. Ndikudziwa kuti mutha kukhala ndi zomwe ndili nazo. Ndife tonse okhoza kuchiritsidwa.
Sizinali zoyipa kwenikweni, mankhwala onsewa. Zimakhala ngati kubala mwana ... zikangotha, sizimawoneka zoyipa. Ndipo kwenikweni, inu mumakhala ngati mumazikonda izo. Ndipo ndikufuna kutero kachiwiri.