Zamkati
- Kulimbana ndi zovuta zokhudzana ndiukwati
- Kupita kwachilengedwe - ana!
- Ubale ndi banja zimakhala zovuta nthawi zina
- Chikhumbo chothamangira kubwerera ku moyo wopanda nkhawa, wosakwatira
Ndipo atagwada bulu limodzi ndi mpendadzuwa m'manja kuti atifunse kuti tidzakwatirane, sindinali wotsimikiza chilichonse m'moyo wanga. Nthaŵi zonse ankandidabwitsa ndi mpendadzuwa — m'galimoto yanga, pansi pa pilo, m'mbale yabuluu yomwe inali patebulo. Nthawi iliyonse ndikawona imodzi, ndimabwerera tsiku lowala bwino la chilimwe pomwe adanditsogolera, nditakutidwa m'maso, ndikulowa m'munda waukulu wa mpendadzuwa wa Kansas nditapita nane kukakumana ndi banja lake. Chinali chimodzi mwa zinthu zokongola kwambiri zomwe ndinali ndisanawonepo, zambiri nthawi imodzi. Anayala bulangeti pansi ndipo tinagona pamenepo, ndikuyang'ana mapesi ataliatali a masamba achikaso kumtunda kwakulu buluu, podziwa kuti tapeza kumwamba kwathu komwe. Nthawi zambiri amkayimba kuti, "Iwe ndiwe mpendadzuwa wanga, mpendadzuwa wanga wokha," kuti andidzutse m'mawa, zomwe zimandikwiyitsa nthawi zonse zikandiseketsa, koma nthawi zonse zimandidzaza ndi chikondi chathunthu.
Kulimbana ndi zovuta zokhudzana ndiukwati
Komabe, gawo lalikulu kwambiri mwa ine lidali ndi nkhawa zakukhala ndi udindo kwa munthu wina, makamaka kukhala wokwatiwa ndi m'modzi mwina kukhala ndi mwana mmodzi. Nanga bwanji ngati zonse zidasokonekera, momwe maukwati ambiri amachitira? Ndiye chiyani? Choyipa chachikulu, bwanji ngati angandisiye mkazi wina, monga bambo anga anachitira amayi anga?
Kodi sitingangokhala kukhala limodzi? Kapena bwinobe, kodi sitingakhale m'zipinda zosiyana m'nyumba imodzi? Mwanjira imeneyi, sitimatha kuthetsa chibwenzi chathu. Kapena, bwanji za kudzipereka m'malo mokhala ndi ukwati wovomerezeka? "Khazikani mtima pansi, khalani," adatero ndikusangalala kwinaku ndikugwira chibwano changa m'malo mwake, kotero ndimayenera kumamuyang'ana m'maso osangonyalanyaza. “Cholinga changa pamoyo — ndikukonda iwe.”
Kupita kwachilengedwe - ana!
“Mukunena izi tsopano koma onani zomwe zimachitika kwa anthu. Nanga zitatichitikira? ”
"Shh ..." amandinong'oneza, ndikundidula. “Ndikulonjeza kuti sindidzakusiyani. Ndikulonjeza kuti sindidzakupwetekani kapena kukunamizirani kapena kukunamizani kapena kukutayani kapena ana athu. ” “Ana ati? Uli ndi pakati? ” Ndinasangalala nazo kuti amaseka nthabwala zanga zoipa. "Ana omwe tili nawo tidzakhala nawo," adatero. “Ndimawona atsikana.
Awiri a iwo. Mwina tingatchule m'modzi mwa iwo Rute? Pazifukwa zina, nthawi zonse ndakhala ndikulumikizidwa ndi dzinalo. ”
Ndipo ndinamva kulumikizana ndi Mark. Anandikhazika mtima pansi kwambiri. Ndipo zidapanga kusiyana konse. Ankafuna kukwatira "moyenera" mu tchalitchi. Mu diresi yoyera ndi zowinda ndi zonse? Ndimaganiza. Zoonadi? Tinatero — tinakwatirana mu tchalitchi chokongola, chakale cha mwala ndipo tinakhala ndi phwando ku Saugerties Lighthouse pa Mtsinje wa Hudson.
Kenako, akafuna kuyamba banja kwenikweni, ndidakhala ndi nkhawa. Ine? Mayi? Sindingaganize kukhala mayi. Sindinkafuna kukhala mayi. Lingaliro la izo linandiwopsyeza kwenikweni. Koma patangodutsa miyezi inayi, ndinali wokondwa kukhala ndi pakati ndi Nell, ndipo miyezi inayi nditamulandila padziko lapansi, malingaliro athu adagwira ntchito. Tinakhalanso ndi pakati.
Ubale ndi banja zimakhala zovuta nthawi zina
Ndili ndi mwana wathu wachiwiri panjira, inali nthawi yoti tikasanzike kanyumba kathu kakang'ono komanso moyo wamzindawu. Tinagula nyumba yabwino kumpoto chakumzinda, ku Yonkers, ndipo tinasamukira kutatsala miyezi iwiri kuti Susannah abadwe. Zinali zopanikiza komanso zopenga komanso zosangalatsa. Sindinakhulupirire kuti chikondi chathu chidakula bwanji, kuti panali magawo ena ozama kwambiri. Banja lowona mtima linena chimodzimodzi: maubale ndi ukwati zimakhala zovuta nthawi zina, ngakhale mutamukonda kwambiri simungathe kulingalira momwe mumakhalira popanda iwo. Koma zimadutsa matawulo onyowa pansi kapena Bajeti kuti isinthe msewu wopasulidwa. Ndilo vuto lamakono-anthu awiri akugwirizanitsa ntchito zawo ndi moyo wapanyumba.
Ndinali ndi mwayi wokhoza kuchita zonse ziwiri pogwira ntchito kunyumba, kulera atsikana ndikupeza ndalama pantchito yomwe ndimakonda. Sikuti Marko sanatero ndikufuna kusiya ntchito 5:00 pm kuti akafike panyumba munthawi yabwino, chakudya, mabafa, zovala, ndi mabuku; ndikuti nthawi zambiri amayenera kugwira ntchito pambuyo pake komanso motalikirapo kuti afotokoze chilichonse chankhani yayikuluyo ya tsikulo, kapena kuti apange zomwe zimatchedwa kuti bizinesi, nkhani yomwe mtolankhani amakumba yekha yomwe imapitilira kufotokozera zochitika, misonkhano yayikulu , ndi zofalitsa. Nthawi zambiri amakhala kumapeto kwa sabata akugwira ntchito kunyumba, nayenso.
Chikhumbo chothamangira kubwerera ku moyo wopanda nkhawa, wosakwatira
Ndikuvomereza kuti nthawi zina zimandipangitsa kuti ndiyambirenso moyo wanga wosasamala, wosakwatiwa-womwe ndinali nawo kale, komwe ndinali womasuka kuchita zomwe ndimafuna nthawi yomwe ndimafuna komanso momwe ndimafunira. Wopanda mwamuna, wopanda ana, wopanda ngongole yanyumba; ndipo pomwe ndimamukonda kwambiri ndikunyadira za iye ndikusangalala kwambiri ndi miyoyo yathu, nthawi zina ndimadzipeza ndekha ndikumukhumudwitsa pondipatsa zonse zomwe sindimadziwa kuti ndimafuna.